Over a two-year period, I explored my sexuality with an abandon and confidence I’d never known before. My experience ran counter to the conventional wisdom that older men of a certain age are no longer sexual beings. In spite of the fact that I no longer looked like a young man, I felt in some way more attractive to women than in my earlier years because of the appeal that experience brings.

Writing this has helped me figure out both who I was sexually, and what I had to offer besides my sexuality. The two sides of myself that had once been unformed and separate came together. And then, ten months ago, after this personal evolution, I realized I was ready for something I’d never had.

Something I thought I was never entitled to have. Its time.