I am excited not really nervous this morning hard to believe but that may change in 7 hours lol.

Yes I am meeting my Travel companion aka BFF for the weekend Not idea what will happen no pressure for sexual things but we all know that will happen and I'm sure you just dying to see how kinky it gets because well he is a dom in the bdsm community. (squeal) ok so lets recap my birthday.

My Birthday SUCKED it ever I had a bad on it was it and of course it had to me my 40th . So maybe I can give that day back and pick another one and say hey this is my Birthday because if I have to always look at back on it as my worst birthday how sad it is that. quick back note my holidays always sucked especially as … was a last minute ditch effort . I have never had a birthday party. I rarely get presents. I got many with out a cake such as this one. It just is not held as a big deal. Yet YET everyone's birthday to me is held as a big deal I try and make them special . I'm the one who brings you balloons and decorates your office, the one that surprises her husband with a new truck the one that buys something months before because I knew how bad you wanted it and you cant believe I remembered. You always get a effort which means more then the price of something. I guess I am not worth that effort. so lets start at today and work our way through.

My morning started off good.... Got Hercules2 on the messengers I sent him a video of me lying in bed my head was cut out and about calve down in the screen shot. I had on a simple black nightgown very silky spaghetti strap and V neck. lying on my back so it was a side shot. I ran my … min clip of me running my hands down my chest to my crotch my body responding by slowly moving I pulled my nightgown up slightly to show just a bit of the pussy and then pulled it down from the top and rubbed my breast. then ran my hand down my thigh and pulled up the nighty to show my bottom a bit. all very teasing nothing vulgar . I sent it to herc and said " come play with me"

and waited... (h) Damn very hot

(d) xox

(h) are you still in bed?

)d) yes love

(h) mmmmm show me

so I sent just a picture of me lying in the bed

(h) HOT

(d) Hotter if you was in it with me

(h) Mmmmm I like ur thinking

(d) cum join me

(h) teasing my cock

(d) I want it ( guys love this line )

(h) I wanna give

(d) mm gie it wet kisses till its rock hard

(h) Mmmm yes

(d) rub it between my breast

(h) show me your bit titties

so I pulled my gown down and took a top view of my breast and sent it to him

(d) are you in bed ?

(h) yes

(d) is your cock out

(h) yes

(d) my pussy is out to its very wet

(h) show me

(d) this time I sent a 20 sec clip close up of my pussy with 1 finger rubbing the clit and down yes I was wet I have a hot guy in another bed getting off on me.

(h) very hot I wanna tongue that wet pussy and ass

(d) Mmmm I would quiver at he touch of a tongue right now

(h) imagine my tongue licking that ass Dammn rub that wet pussy

(d) mmm show me you

so I got a picture of his cock in hand

(h) need to shave it clean for you

( I do not require men to be shaven clean but ya it does help if you expect oral not going to lie there but well trimmed is nice too and to me more appealing to look at maybe I'm old school. same way with pussys I think well trimed look better then bald, but so many guys like it shaven so I shave really need to wax sometimes you shave you get ingrown hairs and ugh just don't want to go there)

(h) thinking of your mouth wrapped around my cock

(d) mm my tongue going from balls to tip

(h) yes

(d) then all around the dome

(h)oh yes work that cock

(d) then slowly put it in my mouth

(h) take it

(d) man do you fel the vibration I my throat ( not sure if you guys feel this but oh god when a guy moan and eating you out fuck ya you feel the vibration )

(h) feels so good

(d) mmm squeeze your balls as I suck harder

(h) yes squeeze them tight

(d) oh I will and nibble at them

(h) nibble bite whatever u want ( oh he is turned on now)

(d)Mmmm nice long strokes with my mouth

(h) stroke m squeeze me suck me use me

(d) suck harder as I go up while squeezing your balls precum and saliva running down your dick

(h) yes I wanna taste some

(d) easy enough I can stop lean up and kiss you .. how good do you taste

(h) yes please I wanna taste damn so horny you?

(d)oh yes I'm going to cum vey soon

(h) Mmmm I wanna hear

Yes the whole time I'm rubbing my clit and breast

(d) go back down and run my tongue around your ass while my hand keeps stroking the head of your cock head faster

(h) oh yes damn my ass likes attention

(d) you know I'm not going to neglect that .. slip my tongue in your tight ass

(h) Mmm only if I can repay

(d) absolutely

(h) love me some good ass licking

(d) we can go 69

(h) hot

(d) suck your dick and finger your ass

(h) oh yes

(d) Mmm is your hips moving to meet my mouth

(h) oh yes

(d) hot makes me moan more

(h) oh fuck yes

(d) fuck my mouth while I fuck your ass with my fingers

(h) I'm fucking I'm fucking

(d) Mmmm I have 2 fingers deep in you

(h) go deep

( d) mmm yes your precum is the lube deep and fast I want you moaning

(h) I'm I'm

(d) are you going to cum for me

(h) yes baby r u

(d) fuck yes wanna see

(h) yes

so I sent a 1.20 min clip of me rubbing my pussy until I cum with moaning and al. super hot and you could see the orgasm . the video was focused just on my pussy

(h) damn I want to lick and drink it up mmm let it drip down your ass so I can suck it off soo hot

(d) mmm yes I want you to cum on my breast

(h) oh yes then lick off

(d) right on the nipples you can suck it off

(h) you think (e) will enjoy joining us

(d) oh yes

(h) me too I want to suck his cock while you watch

(d) ohhh yes deep

(h) I wanto take his cock in my mouth

(d) I'm going to tie his hands behind hisbak and let you take him

(h) mmm yes maybe u could peg me to

(d) maybe so many fun things to do

(h) then slide his dick in my ass will you let me suck on the strap on

(d) of course you will have it before the real thing

then I got his video cumming for me oh god so hot ladies well build man stroking off to what you say and cumming on his stomach and the sound of moaning and saying oh ya when he came oh man watched it like 5 times in a row.

I told him that was fucking hot and well done I was pleased

he told me he was glad I can please u

so my morning started off spending it with herc and having a orgasm. granted I never think self love is as good as the real thing but it helps connect us until I meet him.

so lets move on to Australia now some of this I can not do word for word because I deleted the app it was on due to getting … off. so I have to sum it up. Morning started out ok My Birthday present he sent me a 57 sec video that was just him talking with his sexy accent saying what should I get you for my birthday and decided on something I didn't have and that was a beach. he had a piece of paper that said happy birthday... sorry not giving out my name lol. told me it was a 30-40 min drive but he was going to do it for me . I loved I got to see him and hear him I teared up it was so thoughtful I just loved it. Mind you this was the only gift I got so I treasured it . ive watched it prob 30 times scared I'm going to lose the video not sure how to save it. so the next video was of the sign and he said happy birthday dear and got out and video the Australian beach for me. but that went to hell as he got very jealous knowing my plans of PA ok he didn't know all of them but he knew I was going and felt that I was replacing him. Now come on this is my Australia we have been talking for 6 months like every day 11 hours out of the day sometimes more seen every inch of me in videos and pictures and then some. so I got … because he called me a slut. I just was not having being called names its not fair a guy can go out and have a good time but not a girl. Fuck that shit I'm not 18 I'm fucking 40 if this women wants to have some fun I'm intilted to it I fucking work 45 hours a week at a high position in the company I raise my kids and take care of the house .... ok off the soap box.

would be different if he was in the states but he is not . so latter he said he was sorry very sorry he knew he stepped over the line when I started deleting him rom my world. he called several times I refused to answer. he told me about a past girl who done the same but she chose the other guy and how he was the one that was left hurt and he was worried I was doing the same thing. I told him he had to learn to trust me. he asked if I wanted to just be meaningless friends and he was calm and then telling me happy birthday beautiful all in he same sentence lol

I told him I did not know how I could be more he was playing with my emotions

he asked if wanted to break up and said he was calmly explaining why he got so upset and he had zero intention to get angry.

ok so this may not make sense to you but when reading a text you only see black and white you do not hear the tone behind the words so sometimes what someone types could be read as if the person is angry or yelling which I have told I'm but when you hear them on the phone they are calm and its nothing like you pictures . I often will hear angry and yelling because that is what I'm use to so unfortunately you have to explain this in text +

he asked if he could call but I told him no I had 20 minutes to get ready for work and was just out of the shower. I decided how much I loved the video he sent me of him talking to me I would do the same. I had been crying because I really thought this was it if he was going to get this jealous and was not here it was the end. I told him in the text lets try not to text anymore thanks him for the birthday present and I was not ready to leave and needed to. told him lets have a good day ok and bye I love you.

I sent a text said we need more videos talking to each other especially when we have something important to say. so I got another video back of him apologizing and saying he would trust me .

then he told me I looked beautiful I told him he was the one I wanted to be with and then he told me yes I want you to be my wife want you o be only my woman.....take a moment and reflect on that one .....

he said I'm jealous which means you mean a lot to me. and asked what do you want ....

I told him a stress free day for I'm to trust me at least for today

he told me your husband is completely wrong a guy does want you me I want you. I told I'm to stop texting me and tell me

so then the rest of the day pretty much went by normal he got no sleep and text me most of the day it was like 5:30 am his time before he went to bed. He talked about ways to try and come over to the states and live to be near me . anyone have a easy solution I'm all ears. the easiest way is family course he has none here. he is educated but you have to have a job sponsor or something. we are still working on it may try contacting a lawyer . sent him pictures and clips all day of what I was doing and he did the same....at the same time I had hubby sending me text telling me how he is going to move out because that is obviously what I want I LITERLY had one guy telling me he wanted me to be his wife and my husband telling me I love you but you don't love me so I will find somewhere to go I know I'm not wanted. Did I mention this was my 40th birthday and I was at work. I was a swarm of emotions I actually shut down long story short hubby is still here still trying to win back my love. does he deserve it not in my head but others would say yes. so I'm the bad girl ... Happy Birthday to me

" shout out real quick to all the people who commented or sent me PMs that said happy birthday I appreciate every one of them really I do it was such a tense and bad day that helped more then you know"

Back to BFF we made plans to meet at a restaurant and have lunch when we get there planning on around noon he plans on getting there earlier to beat traffic he said he thought he would be there by 10 but for me to not rush.

I have yet to pack but did go by the store and got some sexy panties and thigh high stockings just in case I want to put them on. lol and I bought a pj pant and top for bed just in case we are snuggling and watching tv and talking and that's all.

SOOO now onto NJ He has made accommodations to be close by for Monday . I have a eye appointment and told him I could give him 3-4 hours of my time for a 1st date . he said he would be in on sunday to make sure he was available to me . He is so lonely and loves talking on the phone. his family is in California so I'm sure he is. every one needs human contact weather it is on the phone or in person. someone you can talk to about anything. I honestly only have a few people I trust with all of my secrets I don't even tell my … every thing I do I don't lie but withhold some of the information. it can be hard to say it outloud. but back to NJ I am hoping that it goes well he is more of a sugar daddy then a dom daddy. not what I was looking for but may be fun. he says he wants to fully pamper me and will devote all his time and efforts towards making me happy. good thing he found me someone else would have takin him for a big ride . well believe it or not I have not packed yet or my trip and I have 2 hours so better go you know I will keep you all up to date ...have a great weekend

Sitting here waiting to get my pussy and ass eaten by anyone. But everyone is playing. Sitting here with a wet creamy pussy playing with it because no one else will play with it. Why must my pussy and ass suffer because you guys are playing games.