bigoldbear's Blog

Two combined topics meshed in my head today, and this seemed the best place to write about them. I'm a Master owning a 25 year … who is allowed to date. How could a Master allow … to date other people?!??!

Because I'm more long term oriented than I am hungry.

My girl is a slut. She has been with a lot of guys, and loves sex. Its part of what I love about her. But, more than that, I love her loyalty. She is mine. My pet. … trust that she will be here, at my side, unless I screw up really badly.

So what if some other guy pets my kat? Takes her to the park, gets to know her? She's MY kat. She will be back here right after, eager to be back to her master, glad to have explored another option, glad that I'm still here for her to come home to.

And if she's not, I'm better off having found that out sooner rather than later. It won't happen, but if it does, I'm better off without hidden disloyalty in my life.

When I'm searching on here, I'm doing the same thing. Im looking for someone willing to play, someone interesting, even perhaps someone who wants to join our little family. But if there is some undercurrent of taking me for yourself, or breaking her and I up, or having me all your own, you will quickly see how I feel about being played. I'm here honestly, openly, directly. I do not lie about myself. I don't exaggerate. I may not talk much about the less glamorous parts of my life, but I will if someone seems interested.

But I am probing every second for lies, for deceit, for fakeness. I am working every second to draw another mental black X over a profile picture. Because I don't NEED anything from anyone out here. I'm not that hungry. Im enthusiastic, and interested, and open to possibilities. but I am nobody's fool, and have no interest in falling for anyone's trap.

I already have a loyal kat at home, and even if I didnt, better alone than with someone I cant trust and believe in.