I apologise. I am not going to lash out like that anymore . ive just been really upset lately and need to vent to someone who truly understands me. I just feel so alone and I know I am a bit out there with my sexuality but I don't need to push that on anyone. I just want to be myself and be accepted. I dont care anymore if I get laid or not. If someone wants me then they can meet me whenever the time is right. I don't want to cause trouble in anyone's life nor be a burden. I just want to be recognized for good deeds and respected. Thanks ppl. Hope to hear from ya!!

Ive gone through some shit in my life that most people would say is way too much to bear. I don't have much but what I've got is mine and I'm proud to say I'm on my way towards a better life. I dont want to get into my personal business too much but I do want to reach out to anyone who truly understands why I'm acting out the way I am and why I dont care how or who. Happens to me. I just dont care anymore and its been something ive wanted to happen to me to a point. I just want to unleash in a way that noone gets hurt and at the same time has a fierce emotional drive with it that is one of a kind. If anyone gets hurt I want it to be me. I want it and there will be no hard feelings to whoever does anything to me. But mainly I need some friends who understand and can relate that I can talk to at least. I have noone and I know I am weird for wanting what I want but I dont care. Weird is good and has capabilities to allow experiences noone has evwr thought of before.