OK so just found out the love of my life who died July 4th weekend was carrying … did not tell me got a call from the hospital she died in because her mother told them that I was the only person that could have been the father, how fucked up is that?

so im no stranger to losing someone I love I have a brother why "they say" committed suicide in 1992, so losing him was like losing my best friend, and anyone who knows me knows about this, Well I fell in love with a young lady who was a user of meth. how we met is for another blog. I tried for years to get her to stop using even got her to come visit me from Ms. for a month for the month time she was clean she then insisted on going back home to Ms. so because I loved her so much I agreed under one condition, that she return to me after she settled all her business back home she was back home for one month and over dosed and died, I have not been able to sleep since and I just want to die myself to be with her again is that wrong? advice on this please don't know who reads these but if you do please I could use all the advice I can get

back when I was younger dumb and full of cum, I was engaged, my fiance and I where riding in the back seat of my cavalier while my best friend was driving and my mom was in the passenger seat well my fiance had this little sun dress on and was sitting on my lap. So I decided to slip out of the shorts I was wearing at the time and pull her sundress and panties to the side and slip into her now she knew what was going on so tried to be as quiet as she could but every time we hit a bump in the rode she would let out a moan in pleasure until we both ended up cumming and until this day neither my mom nor my best friend knew about this, and I only say until this day because my mom has pasted away since then and knows about it now RIP mom that is the most public place I've had sex and the thought of one or both of them turning around ans seeing what was going on was the most exciting thing ever