So I recently have been spending time with a girl who let's me go down on her and lets me bang her but does not let me fuck her nor does she help to get me off! So her ex passed away a year ago from a drug OD. They had been together for 7 years. So she is not ready for sex yet. She talked about him a lot at 1st so I know he has a massive cock! Almost a.foot long and as wide as a corn cob! She said when he was mean to her or treated her bad that she would suck his dick to try and make him a better man. I feel I am being used but she does let me play with her body and likes to watch me jack off. She has told me I am free to see other girls if I want to and that some day she will return the attention I have given her. She is hot and kinky and I think the sex is going to be worth it when it happens!